Tuesday, 28 October 2008

Slightly mad

I think I'm going slightly mad(der).

Decreasing the meds is giving me brain zaps. It seems that my brain just wants the damn serotonin, but I don't know what else I can do: even with the lowest possible dose, if I don't take it one day, it complains!
Possibly related, I had such a bad night of sleep Sunday night that I didn't make it to work on Monday. Spent most of the day like a zombie (braaaains), knitting plain stockinette (and now my Healing Cardi has nearly 1 sleeve!).

I've also stopped wanting to go to Tai Chi, although that is from before I started the med reduction. It's fine once I'm there, but at the moment it's cold and grim and dark outside, and I just don't have the energy to go there (although I would love it if I could teleport there).

On the good side, I've just ordered way too many pounds of yarn, some worsted weight in bright colours to make amigurumi and some beautiful light chocolate laceweight silk for a shawl. I've only made basic lace before, so of course the right thing to do is get very lovely, very think silk and dive to the deep end, right?


  1. I think you are a lot like me: darkness and cold make me want to start a wintersleep like bears and squirrels...
    yarn shopping is a good healing step...
    and to be positive: being insane doesn't hurt ;)

  2. I'm guessing you've already explored this option but just in case not - light therapy? I'm thinking to get you up and moving about more, which might lead to a better night's sleep.

  3. Oh, I'm already doing light therapy. It has made a difference, I think, but still not enough to do more than the basics. I probably should take it up again with my doctor, maybe prod her to get a sleep study (although she'll probably want to want until I get meds of my system, which is fair enough).